Sixteen Days After My Husband’s Funeral, The Hospice Nurse Asked If I Knew A Woman Named Lorraine, Then I Found The Shoebox In His Workshop

The headlights belonged to my daughter Susan, who had driven over because I had not answered the phone. She found me on the concrete floor with the stubs spread around me like playing cards. I expected her to gasp. Instead, she sat beside me, picked up the photograph, and said, “Then we find her.” That night we wrote a letter to the post office box in Duluth. I kept it short. “My husband Harold passed in October. Before he died, he asked me to tell you he kept the blue house.”

Nine days later, my phone rang. The voice was a woman’s, careful and kind. “My name is Joan,” she said. “Lorraine was my mother. She passed three years ago.” Then she told me the story I had waited forty-two years not to know. Lorraine and Harold were engaged at twenty-four. Joan was born that spring. But Lorraine’s family moved her north to Minnesota, and the wedding never happened. Harold met me two years later. He never spoke of them again. He also never missed a payment. Twice a year, every year, for six decades.

“And the blue house?” I asked. Joan’s voice softened. “I’m standing in it.” Harold had bought it for Lorraine before the wedding that never came. When she left, everyone told him to sell. Instead, he signed the deed over to a baby girl he would never get to raise, and quietly paid the taxes on it until she turned eighteen. “I grew up in that house,” Joan said. “My mother told me an honest man in Illinois made sure we always had a roof. She never once called him anything but that. An honest man.”

I sat with that for a moment, jealousy and grief and something like pride tangled together. Then Joan said the thing that undid me. “He wrote my mother one letter a year. Never romantic. He asked if I needed anything, and he talked about you. Edith’s garden. Edith’s pie crust. Edith, Edith, Edith. My mother used to laugh and say she lost him twice, once to Minnesota and once to you.” The money order stubs stopped looking like a betrayal that night. They started looking like the man I had married, keeping a promise in secret because keeping it out loud might have hurt me.

In May, Susan drove me to Duluth. The house was still blue, the exact blue of the photograph. Joan met us on the porch with coffee, and on her mantel, next to her mother’s picture, sat a Folgers can full of peppermint candies. “He mailed them every Christmas,” she said. I laughed until I cried. He kept the blue house. And somehow, it kept us.

Aria Lexicon is the pen name of the writer and editor behind The Daily Signal, a site for original short fiction about families, grudges, awkward neighbors and the small decisions that turn into big ones. Every story is invented; every character is made up. When She isn't writing, She's reading other people's stories and trying to figure out why the good ones work.

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