The letter said he knew why I married him and that it had never mattered, because he had watched me become someone who stayed, who read to him when his eyes went, who did not leave when the money became a fixed and boring fact and there was only a sick old man left. He wrote that he wished he’d been thirty years younger and then wrote, underneath, that he was glad he hadn’t been, because a younger man would never have known enough to be grateful for what I gave him.

His daughter did not laugh again. She wrote to me a year later, not warmly, but not cruelly either, to say she had misjudged the timing of my grief. It was the most she could manage and I accepted it as what it was.

I run the bookshop. It does not make much. I do not need it to.

I kept one of his watches, the cheap one, the one he actually wore, which the children did not want.

Everyone was certain they knew what I deserved, and so was I. I married a man to survive and I stayed because I stopped needing to. Barrett was the only person who ever looked at me and saw past the reason I arrived to the person I became. He gave me exactly what I deserved, and it was not the house or the money. It was the one thing no one had offered me in years, which was to be seen clearly, and chosen anyway.